atuylicious

2010-02-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

Time for me to update whats going on lately.

As far as i can remember,

on CNY Eve went to watch Valentines Day at Dhoby Ghaut.

together with Boyfriend and the rest.

Azyrl Danish birthday falls on Valentines Day,

which my father sent boyfriend and i off to Baby's house.

after the engagement of my cousin.

And this is the last week boyfriend will be at Tekong.

Dah tak bau laut Tekong lagy.haha.

As per usual pictures up at Multiply and Facebook.

p/s : aku always carik bukti sebelum aku bukak mulot,

baik matae ker baik kawan. so if krg pandai-pandai cakap matae

aku buat bende make sure krg tunjuk dulu pat aku.

if not diam-diam sudah.

2010-01-25T16:12:00.002+08:00

im missing these Ladies here.

we hardly talk and hardly meet up and i swear

i miss you girls fckloads.

and please anything txt me up. Anything .

im here . ❤

and to Boyfriend :

I MISS YOU !

2010-01-09T20:40:00.013+08:00

' u dah tukar blogskin tk update pasal i ker

u rindu i ker aper ker , ape- apelah asal kan u update sal i ,

nnt i alek i bleh bace . . . '

this is what you get when your bf is serving the country ,

drg nyer menyenyeh mcm maknenek .

no wonder ramai pmpn ckp ,

' carik matae yg da abes NS , snng ' ◕‿◕

BUT for im happy to see him through NS untill he finish his NS.

bedek larh kalau aku ckp aku tk rindu dier kan.

he'll be back tomorrow so tunggu jer bsk .

To Dearest Boyfriend ,

I love you and i always will , yes im a total bitch to you all this while and

you know better despite the way that i treat you i still love you no matter what , despite the shits , the lies and the one i hate most the MAT REP attitude when we fight i still love you.

I may not be your first ,

your last and your one and only.

Yes , you are not perfect and i do have my flaws too.

But one thing i know for sure and i promise you this ,

i'll be tankfull for the sacrifices that you have made for me , i will miss you when you not here and love you with all my heart

and believe that you will never break me.

❤ ❥❤ ❥❤ ❥❤ ❥❤ ❥

2010-01-04T12:52:00.003+08:00

been ages since my last updates.

First of all Happy 2010,

May this year be a blessing for all of you

and have a happy and meaningful journey in 2010.

❤ to my Babies A's :

last long with your loves ones.

yes , there is ups and down in life BUT remember im here.

Be Strong.

❤ to my Diva's :

we have known for a year ,

thanks for the friendship and being here for me.

even we rarely meet up , yougirls know im here for you.

Till the next meet up.

misses & loves .

❤ to my Friends ,

with rarely meetups , with rarely conversation ,

you guys are still the best ,

you guys may not be there but i know you will be there for me.

and for that i thank you.

❤ to my Boyfriend :

i have been a bitch to you all this while ,

yes , i slap , i kick , i scolded you in crowds

yet you are still patient with me.

well im not trying to brag about bf here ,

yes ! he do change , and its not for me

its for himself . i love the way he is now than before.

he leave alot of his bad habits behind to change for the better .

and i thank you for that.

side track :

☆ meet up my my Divas ,

after a long time of not meeting up.

time passes fast and its already a year we've known each other.

lots of love & misses ,

☆ twinnies birthday was celebrate at Downtown East Chalet.

was a simple yet a kecohrable 2D1N gather.

mini cakes , getting high , late night ghost stories

and most of all i have fun .

☆ meet up with the rest after work

for countdown , lunch @ marina foodcourt.

procced to Marina and then to Merlion.

and thanks to bf for MAKING my day ehk ! ツ

(its over and i dont wish to say anything)

procced to slack around Raffles City ,

Kimmy & bf and Ice meet up with me there.

headed for the 1st bus home.

☆ yesterday ,spending time with boyfriend was great.

as he will be going back to Tekong .

kiwak mendak uh aku nnt .

jokes , bby melatar , camwhoring ,

and i love u babi .

2010-01-01T23:32:00.002+08:00

nothing else matters as long i have u..

ily so much until i dun noe hw to prove it to u..

i am soei tat yesterdae i made u sad wen we spent tyme to count down wif e rest..

Happy New YEar! 2010 =)

i had fun wif u all this tyme

i dun wish to lose u or ur heart

i am happy wen i saw u.

n u always b in my heart n no 1 can steal it from u.

because only u have e key to my heart. =)

muhd nur ezwan cinta hazratul ain

(Thanx to cinta)

2009-12-27T09:47:00.000+08:00

Some think that love is all flowers and good times,

but I think that love is more than just that.

Love is the bad, as well as the better,

not lived alone, but a journey together.

Something that only the closest can share,

with communication, respect .

2009-12-26T19:29:00.005+08:00

When you're feeling lost in the night

When you feel your world just ain't right

Call on me, I will be waiting

Count on me, I will be there

Anytime the times get too tough

Anytime your best ain't enough

I'll be the one to make it better

I'll be there to protect you, see you through

I'll be there, and there is nothing, I won't do

I will cross the ocean for you

I will go and bring you the moon

I will be your hero, your strength

Anything you need

I will be the sun in your sky

I will light your way for all time

Promise you, for you I will

I will shield your heart from the rain

I won't let no harm come your way

Oh these arms will be your shelter

No these arms won't let you down

If there is a mountain to move

I will move that mountain for you

I'm here for you, I'm here forever

I will be your fortress, tall and strong

I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you, right or wrong

For you I will, lay my life on the line

For you I will fight, mmm, for you I will die

With every breath, with all my soul

I'll give my word, I'll give it all

Put your faith in me

And I'll do anything

2009-11-15T18:18:00.005+08:00

Just Because Her Eye Don't Tear

Doesn't Mean Her Heart Don't Cry.

Just Because She Came Off Strong

Doesn't Mean There Is Nothing Wrong.

♥

2009-10-19T13:25:00.003+08:00

Went sheesha after work on Saturday

with boyfriend fetching me.

meet up with the rest at Bugis and headed th Haji Lane.

boyfriend spotted dier nyer brother love. haha.

took cab back and home sweet home at 1am.

As for yesterday , boyfriend pick me up after work

and chill at riverside.

Thanks for the present and even though mine

was not expensive but it comes from the heart.chey3. haha.

Last but not least Happy 1yr.

May we bring it forward in years to come. Insyaallah.

pictures of Saturday is up at multiply.

2009-10-12T12:15:00.002+08:00

back pain + cramps = menses

out to raya with the kakis on Saturday.

1st stop twins house and down to rest of the people house .

all was around tampines and went to Boyfriend house last.

ordered pizza and aku nyer belo pergi kasi ryzal nyer hp no.

at the end mamat delivery to alek sak.

and terpakse delivery guy lagy satu antar.

selenger kan aku.

da makan mate da berat alek tido.

boyfriend pick me up at work yesterday and walk around marina and headed home.

cause im not feeling well and boyfriend needs to book in.

2009-10-05T08:26:00.003+08:00

out hari raya with the Changkatians on Saturday.

russhed home from work .

Nyna Love & Nana Darlz come together ith their bf come down

hari raya-ing my house.

went to meet the Changkatians at Hafiz house.

down to Ahmad house at bedok.

which boufriend pick me up there and went home.

th rest of the pictures up at Facebook.

as im off today, will be going to Ain place later.

2009-10-01T13:10:00.003+08:00

mcm biase ake skg pat tempat kejer.

lapar nak mampos. i've yet to jalan raye with my friends.

and ckp pasal raye kan.

aku taw da lambat gyler . .

but still,

Selamat Hari Raye Maaf Zahir & Batin .

kalau terkasar bahase, termaki, terpukol

tersepak, terpekik pt telinge, terpijak, tersiku, tersedawe, terkentut

teriyaki, termakan, terminum dan ter sewaktu dengan nye.

Halal kan makan minum saye salame ni .

kirekn da 0-0 kay ? fair ? haha.

aper lagy nak update ehk ?

i need to shop badly but cant help it larh.

kene pay $260 for ipod pasal aku salah order nyer pasal.

aku bleh belik 2 handbeg and 1 heels taw with it.

bingit bingit bingit !

kay dah larh. nk cbot jap ni.

ciow ! or mina2 slalu ckp wansuey ! haha. (no offence kay)

2009-09-18T11:30:00.004+08:00

lets recap,

Ive been to Geylang god knows how many times.

and this year i did even get to go to Geylang with my kakis.

but i manage to when to Geylang with my Changkatians.

eventho aku tak buke ngan krg . haha.

so much have happen.

conflicts . misunderstanding .

and its coming to raya soon.

this bf and saye pink colour. haha.

but again im not sure when we go raye together.

and to whoever yang nak ajak saye pergy raye same2 kan

bilang in advance taw. maklum larh da kejer. haha.

Im missing my Divas and Kakis very much.

All i hope is that we wont drift apart as we dont meet up often.

im so not ready for raye this year.

did even get to do my hair, nails etc . .

how pathetic is that .

im going broke soon as raye coming already.

nak kene collect utang nih. haha.

2009-09-11T14:15:00.004+08:00

im at work right now.

no customer bored like hell.

eyes are all teary from the yawing.

went to Tekka on wednesday with Lya and bf

and my bf and i .

Lya boyfriend fetches us from work and head down to Tekka

to get our henna done. semangat sak kiter.

intention wanted to go to Mustafa after that but Lya bf

need to went home and sent the car home.

Leaving us and Lya of course to take a cab home.

and boyfriend was nagging to go geylang

to get his baju.

And we headed down to geylang yesterday get his baju and went food

and slack till midnight.

it was like 15mins to get his baju.

as i was like

'cepat larh , ramai org dah panas'

i was nagging all the way.

and bf was like 'ahkay da belik da,da jln alek'

boyfriend terpakse layan karenah aku.

pnat taw alek kejer.

but again i still want to go geylang and buy the food banyak2 .

and two of my beloved friends have to serve the country.

To Yan :

See you in 2 weeks tyme in one piece. hope so.

To Apax :

Selamat berjuang untuk negara !

and aku nk meet kau . nk tgk kau botak mcm aner. haha.

Will be missing you both. Take Care of yourselves and enjoy your journey.

p/s : i will change the link asap and reply your tags kay.

B ! I WANT THE HANDBAG AND NAK GY HOLIDAY.

JOM !

2009-08-30T10:20:00.011+08:00

not forgetting i miss spenting tyme with these two.

rough patch with the bf. i guess everything was fine yesterday.

and to the bf. ONE MORE ! you know what gonna happen.

bf fetch me from work yesterday and headed to Esp

meet up the the usual at riverside.

late nights. baybeats. laughs. screen checks. smokes.

reach home almost to 1am.

it raining now and my eyes are heavy.

i still need to do the house chores. im too lazy larh.

i wanted to go watch lots and lots of movie.

i wanting to go Night Safai and Singpore flyers.

and i need to shop for my make up seriously.

Tags Replied :

baby 'sweetie : b irritating sak kau .

ner kau capai ?

nyna love : ain miss you all also. meet up !! mucx !

zila chika : ok okeh jer. make plan lerr.

sumer da start bz keje.

pape picit. tc.

2009-08-20T08:56:00.003+08:00

i hate feeling sick. ugh .

i know blog not updated for days.

so do bear in mind that blog will be updated ONLY when im free.

as in not working here im am.

i updated what i can remember so far.

Haikal & Nyna Love birthday in August.

May you guys last long with you spouses.

Be in good health and good luck your future endavours.

and to Nyna , meet up soon kay love with the rest.

and the rest of my kakis and friends meet up soon jugak kay.

And Happy Fasting to all. (:

i dont even know if i have the time to go geylang this year or not.

I need my pay larh. Brokey ni.

2009-08-02T08:44:00.003+08:00

blogger have been a bitch these days.

thats why i cant unprivatised my blog. maaf yee.

im off to aunt's wedding later.

just want to wish her blissfull marriage and make sure it will

last this time.

who says marriage is a never ending love story.

this is reality.

reality is not a fairytale.

i hope my own life will be a happy ending.

just like in the books.

i would rather get married to someone who i love

and who love me in returned, eat what we have and

work hard to make both our lives be a beautiful one

then getting married to a rich man son and feel empty.

right ?

im blaberring nonsense in the morning. pardon me. ahak !

im hunrgy as usual (:

2009-07-31T08:00:00.001+08:00

Im off for two days. Today and yesterday.
And i spent it with bf. Ive been neglecting bf since ive started work
and since so much have happened. I just to free from things these few
days and not to think of my problems. Any ive yet to meet with my friends
and Divas. Im craving for Macdees Hotcakes.
im going get ready to meet bf.
Toodles.

2009-07-28T08:44:00.003+08:00

Ever thought of being popular in just one night ?
well, my friends and i did. You wont know how greatly honoured we are.
to whoever it may concern thanks a million.
we couldnt thank you enough for making us popular,in facebook.
dragging me down by fbk ? ahak ! i dont think so.
and STOP PUTTING WORDS IN MY/OUR MOUTH.
dont get it still ? well, run to your mommy and ask her.
p/s : go report go !
You talk it , i live it , your jealous , admit it .

2009-07-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19TH to Apax.
Sorry for the late post Yus !
May Allah bless you and good luck in ypur future. NS ! (:
then go carik girlfriend okeh.
hugs & misses.
Please tale care okeh. Just beep me up for anything. Anything okeh .

2009-07-18T08:54:00.006+08:00

Tags Replied :

fisah : aku pon miss kau larh gyler.

syuk : i dun rembr you been seems u frm my pri sch frens. i guess. and btw asl ehk. ader masalah ke ngan blog aku ?

pharah : i link you up alrdy darla.

see you around kay.

I'm missing alot of people right now.

form west and even the nearest.

from my darling Diva , my triple A's , my secondary nyahs and the guys.

i want a meet up pretty soon okeh lovelies.

2009-07-18T07:48:00.003+08:00

hapi 9monthsary bby..i juz dun want 2 heard u sae u gib up i wont let u gib up walaupn the things is hard..i lup alot bby thanx 4 all e love tat u gib me 4 all thiz while soei i tkd bende nk kasi hanya hati i jer ader utk kasi pt u..dun stress urself alot u am here 4 u..u always can talk to me..k la bby nnt mit up kay..imy alot taw..gtg taking e care lup u bby.. =)

2009-07-07T14:23:00.005+08:00

( Kimmy 20th and DD without Nyna Love )

since im not at work. i shall updated kay.

i got a terrible headache thus the reason not going to work.

24 June : little sister bdae.
28 June : Kimmy L 2oth bdae.

5 July : Boyfriend bdae.

Kimmy Bdae was celebrated at Spore Zoo.

Zoo changes so much and headed to Esp to meet the Kakis.

pictures up at multiply.

Boyfriend bdae was a mini one.as i have to work that Saturday.
slack at Merlion and waited for Aidil and the rest.

i bought bf slices of cake at Coffee Bean.

the cakes was a disappointment.

2009-07-05T17:05:00.003+08:00

yea!! nari da 18 hehe...thanx bby 4 e cake yesterdae i really hapi..n i am hapi tat my wish have come true tat to b wif u n never let u go...yela sume da nk naek 19 i aru naek 18 haiz...hehehe..bby take care kay..tkmo notty2 taw wen i pt camp...ily dear =)

2009-07-03T23:38:00.003+08:00

thanx 4 everything no matter wat happen to us i wont leave u...i had done a mistake tat i sae i wont do it again n i still do it...bby thanx 4 treat diff for past fewdae..i have learnt tat u i love so much until i cant lose u bby..our world mayb diff but as long we love n care 4 each other i am hapi 4 it...mayb after thiz our rs n our lyfe mayb diff i sae thiz not because tat i nk tgl kn u tap u noe wat happen kn...ily dear hope u can spent tyme wif me wen my bdae heheh =) aru nk pijak swit 18 kn...

2009-06-27T08:19:00.004+08:00

What i have with him is worth it,

it is worth every lonely night,

ever tear i cry from missing him,

& the pain i feelfrom not having him close,

it's worth it because he is my one and only.

its been quite awhile things happen.

as for now im too numb with everything.

i dont even really know what more i can do to save the relationship

cause i've tried.

i didnt control you or what so ever.

i didnt ask your whereabouts. why ?

cause i trusted you.

to me the slightest thing mean alot to me. it does matter okeh.

just refresh how you treat your ex and me.

i know even if you don't tell me.

i never say anything not even a single bit. i just keep it to myself.

dont just keep running away from problems,solve it.

when trying to solve problems with me , dont ever treat me like your friend kay !

cause once you treat me as your friend , you will get the same treatment from me.

you know my way.

You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry.

So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes ?!

Its either im strong enough or its either im at the edge.

P/S : NI RANDOM LARH . HAHA .

2009-06-21T10:43:00.003+08:00

I've starting working as Customer Service at Funan.

keje lepak nak mampos !

headed to Marina with bf , peeqah and bf and meera.

had lunch at Marina Square food court.

around 5 bf make a move as he need to book in at 7. -_-

comes along yan and haz.

slack at Merlion watch the ndp rehearsal and accompanied haz to buy his stuff.

twins went back to Eunos and the rest of us slack at Telepark

while munching on Jco Donuts.

home sweet home.

2009-06-14T22:08:00.003+08:00

updating for yesterday.

let me make it short and sweet kay.

was suppose to go to Sentosa with the rest and end up as a triple date.
headed to Long John Silver. takeaway.

lunch at Sentosa.

make a move at 8.

dinner at Banquet and home sweet home :)

the rest of the pictures up at multiply.

2009-06-09T17:50:00.005+08:00

Happy 20cents to Feesah !

May all your wishes come true and may you have endless love.

You've been missed larh.

Hugs and

Tags Replied :

baby sweetie : okeh thanks.

DD : link up alrdy.

nyna love : relinked :)

jepon : bored pat camp sebok2 pat blog org ? haha.

deenah : thanks 4 d wish niwae.tc.

nana darlz : kecoh uh kau. haha.

2009-06-03T22:33:00.006+08:00

Happy 19th to my nyah ! haha.

May Allah bless you and your family.

Good luck for you upcoming practicals.

May you in the pink of health always.

Years of friendship still counting.

~~~~~~

out to fishing with the guys and bby gal zi.

headed home first with bf as he need to book in later.

cabbed home and here i am.

1 word : Dissapointed

2009-06-01T14:31:00.003+08:00

thanks million to my darling divas for the mini

celebration for my birthday that was at Pasir Ris Park.

thanks for the cake and nyna aku suker cookie kau .

and kimmy thanks for antar aku alek.

btw aku suker tunggu moto kau start.haha.

thanks once again. aku sayang korang.

shall see you girls the next time.

take care my divas.

2009-05-30T21:42:00.006+08:00

my dearest bbygirls with their love ones. and i love u girls alot !

thanks million for all that came down to my bdae pit yesterday.
adli, apax, aisyah & friend, fisah, ryzal.farah and my deariest kakis.
had a mini celebration at my grandparents house and headed to

East Coast which my dearies make a celebration for me.

I couldnt thank you guys enough.

Confession i cut the cake without Zi as they came late.

i didnt even took a picture with her,

but im content enough that you did come down despite being late. haha.

and thanks for the present. loving it larh. thankey.

meera and wan together with bf and me.

talk about stuffs to till late in the morning.

make a move as bf is too tired and wan is werking and meera was

pastering peeqah and i to go home.

as we intend to saty awhile more.

make a move leaving the rest to bbq in the morning.

once again. thank you so so so much

your presence is greatly appreaciate by me.

mwah !

pictures up at multiply.

http://pokeywaksiol.multiply.com/

2009-05-29T10:25:00.002+08:00

hapi bdae to u hazratul ain...may all ur wish come true..b hapi alwayz k taking e care. =)
ily alot...muackz..

2009-05-29T10:02:00.002+08:00

happy 19th to me. haha.

thanks to my dearies that wish me yesterday and today.

and not forgeting putting up post of me at your blog dengan pic aku yang sungguh cute :)

thankey thakey.

love korang to bits and pieces. mwah !

2009-05-28T10:25:00.001+08:00

For the first time, nothing even cheered me up.

Even a lollie or a pack of Skittle.

Even staring-at-a-guy's-hot-ass...believe it or not.

I just feel so down that I could actually almost reach hell.
I'm sick of this shit.

2009-05-23T18:10:00.003+08:00

i want to wear my new bikini larh.

SENTOSA jom !

2009-05-18T09:16:00.015+08:00

headed to Raffles City for interview for the new opening ION Orchard.

with bf accompanying me.

hope i get one of the jobs that i applied for.

meet up with the rest of the kakis at pasir ris park.

as to chill around and a mini celebration for dearest Zi bby.

a pity theres no picture.

last Saturday,

headed to Botanical Gardens with bf,ryzal and gf.

was a last min plan, as always.

meet up at Orchard bf reach earlier and as usual he nag like nobody

business and yet also his sarcasm.

had lunch at Lucky Plaza.

while rzal sent his gf home , we meet up with aidil

and headed to around Eastview to slack.

mcm biase gak aku berat bontot.

ryzal gf, Marsh

Tags Replied :

syiqah : done with the links (:

zi : hope it make your day too.

apax : machine kan bkn manusia haiya! outing jgn tnyer sayer tnyer kembar sih.

ryzal : like duhh. haha.

2009-05-14T09:24:00.002+08:00

todae u lyke diff person y??i hate u thiz way..i juz want e old ain..n ur heart i dun noe still wif me or not?rmb thiz word (To be together in sickness and in health, in ups and downs and in rich and in poor.?)i try 2 make u hapi n bring u to watch x-man bt u look lyke bored..haiz if tired of me plz tell me..i noe wen i sae thiz u will sae it me 2 me..bt really try my best 2 make u hapi wen u are down..bt it juz cant feel ur love toward me anymore =( juz 2 let u n0e tat iLy ALWAyZ i TAKe thiz off juz 2 b wif u bt u were trying 2 fade away from me...taking e care by jepon

2009-05-14T08:10:00.003+08:00

Blow out the candles

and make a wish,

cause your the princess of the day.
Happy 18th Birthday to my bby girl. Azimah.

Best of luck in your future and may you have a blissful year ahead.

Go smoke all you want.

Go drink all you want.

Go club like there's no tomorrow.

2009-05-11T09:46:00.006+08:00

most of days last week were spent with bf and my friends.

saturday went to town with bf and aidil.

i know pathetic.haha.

headed to Lucky Plaza to have our Nasi Ayam Penyet.

after lunch bumped into Fisah and her guys friends.

and meet up with Rizal too.

Headed to play pool there.

headed to Plaza Singapura as to give Aneesa her suprise bdae.

bought her a small cake and went our separates ways.

while aneesa went back,rizal and fisah went to Mac for dinner.

reach Vivo my feet is giving me hell.

i was so gatal cause i was wearing heels, new plak tur.

bf bought sandals from Charles n Keith. thanks kay.

bf , aidil and i went to Powerhouse

to meet up with Haz , Yan and Izzy.

and guess what we cant even enter powerhouse.

because they cant given us malay to enter.

why ? cause they say it their management and they cant give us any explanations.

and the bouncer even say you can write to us to give feedback.

a complain or a compliment feedback ? mekk mepek sakkk.

ONLY selected malays will be given the priority to get it.

merepek kan . and they bouncer was even a malay.

trust me most of us malay were hanging outside powerhse cause we cant get in.

and guess what ? aper lagy .

balek arh. while the rest got two wheels.

bf and i got four wheels. cab larh dey.

Happy 19th birthday to my darlingg Aneesa last Saturday.

may all your wishes come thru and good luck in your studies

and future endeavour.

2009-05-10T21:46:00.003+08:00

da tkmo sad2 k i da pt camp tap masih le akai comp la heheh...bedok camp kn bapak i nye camp heheh...da tkmo nk sad2 i n ur fwens sume syg kn u...so don thing so much k...wednesdae i night out i will mit u k...n ur bdae i try 2 make my plan werk kalau sick g rest k n plz anything plz3 msg me or kol me...i am free all dae only 4 u heheh...hope u enjoy tadi nye movie x man...k la pape msg k..i alwayz b there 4 u no matter wat bad or gd tyme...ily =)

2009-05-05T10:10:00.005+08:00

blog have been in dust for like a week or so.

im werking for 1 week larh thats the cause of it larh.

out of bed early in the morning and home till late.

and bf will fetch me from werk without fail. :D

werk at Hougang Mall so called under Sasa larh kan.

perfume promoter.

werk was okeh and of course i get alot of' ' freebies '. * kening naik-naik *

ALOT i tell you.

from perfume to make up to nail polish. haha.

untill bf was like ' kau dh kemarok makeup per ' .

2009-04-26T09:25:00.012+08:00

meet up with kakis and boyfriend yesterday.

headed to Clark Quay for flea market, yet nothing caught my eyes.

had lunch at Harboufront Banquet while Zi bby and bf went done know where.

pergy senyap-senyap ehk. haha. btw zi, you and beng gadoh cute uh.

boyfriend and i waited for the rest outside PowerHouse upon reaching

peeqah fever was getting worse so, we so call 'halau' her to go home.

dancing-dancing.sweat.jugs & glasses of Bourbon.

the rest we chilling sitting around. while fisah and i super hype nak mampos.

boyfriend suker joget dengan pompan ang-moh ? ! *roll eyes*

boyfriend & i, rizal, adlin and fisah catch our last train home

while the rest stay till late.

home sweet home at 1.

my birthday celebration powerhouse till late per ? *kening naek-naek*
i need pictures babies .

bf booking today. imy .

please don't mind my face.

2009-04-25T06:09:00.005+08:00

" ily, and trying to explain why is like trying to explain how water taste.completely impossible. "

its 6 and i cant get to sleep. comfirm mate koyak later.

slack with dearest and the kakis.

when back, leaving Yan alone to wait for aidil,mira and khai as they go mkn.

ouh yarh, friends whoever msg a guy/friend using my phone yesterday please tell me

because the particular whoever idiot keep insisting i msg him

on the 23rd and only ask me yesterday who am i ?

i was on the phone with bf and i was damn bloody piss of with this idiot larh,

why ? the way he text me.

' dah msg tk nk mengaku...pe jer... '

gyler nyer budak, nak admit uat per sedangkan aku tk msg.

kecian kan kau. and i swear i could punch someone yesterday. haha.

2009-04-23T23:05:00.006+08:00

since my previous post was ' saket mate ' ,

i delete larh kan. meet up with the kakis yesterday.

dearest zi bby was there. but we talk for 2 sec ? my bad bby. im sorry.

reached home bf called for a meet up.

i was like ' klakar kaper ! '

so to those how knows his perangai. paham paham jer la.

meet him under my blk and slack.

meet him just now.

watch 17 again. the movie was okeh larh.

our relationship almost come to an end.

shall not elaborate.

" tears are words my heart cant say "

2009-04-20T16:55:00.007+08:00

I just wanted 2 let you know that please stay

away from the beaches all around in the month of July.

There is a prediction that there will be

another tsunami hitting on July 22nd, the same day as a solar eclipse.

experts said there is no connection between an eclipse and an earthquake

It is also when there will be sun eclipse.

Predicted that it is going 2 be really bad

and countries like Malaysia (Sabah & Sarawak), Singapore, Maldives, Australia, Mauritius,

Sri Lanka, India, Indonesia, Philippines are going 2 be badly hit.

Please try and stay away from the beaches in July.

Better 2 be safe than sorry.

Please also pray for all beings.

2009-04-19T08:58:00.008+08:00

was with bf yesterday.

reached his house,slack like pig accompanied by tv

and i was asleep in his couch. he had his shower and slack under his blk

and deciding where to go and talk about our memories together. sungguh irritating.

by then it was 630 alrdy.

meet up with his mother and the both of us was going to the

1st place that we go out together. East Coast Park.

why ecp ? i have yet to received my money which they say they have transfer,

and bf pay was not in yet so that means we were freaking B R O K E .

okeh kiter first-first dating tempat kental.

skola siol that tyme. he insisted that he wanted

to have dinner at Burger King.

had the what ? saucy top crunchy bottom ?

and we both were freaking full , only quarter of the burger were left untouched by us.

i almost wanted to vomit it out seii. and bf was having stomach pain. haha.

slack by the beach and bf sent me home.

thank you eventho kiter budget state nak mampos !

i still have fun and kiter tk gdo siol smlm, bayekk per.

maybe meeting bf before his booking in later.

no money means no shop.

i need to shop for makeup and i wanting the VS wristlet.

and im alone and bored to death siol .

2009-04-15T11:42:00.003+08:00

To alcohol! The cause of, and solution too, all of lifes problems.

I want go drink . I want to go to Sentosa.

Any takers ?

LETS GET WASTED !

2009-04-14T09:06:00.013+08:00

Happy 18th birthday to M.Aidil,

may all your wishes come true and good luck in ur future.

* this pic was so nong nong ago *

please spare me

msia trip was okeh.i guess.

the night i reach S'pore i didnt went home for 2 days till yesterday.

to whoever know the reason, okeh. to whoever dont know ,

dont ask.

i will rather not go back home just to be sent to girls home kay.

i was nearly at the edge of breaking down.

too much weight on my shoulders and plus arguments yet again with bf.

i even make my bloody decision to leave the house for good.

meet up with my dearies yesterday eventho for awhile.

Sec 2n3 gathering last Wednesday. Happy to see whoever was there.

Thursday, Watch Fast n Furious 4 with bf and twins. Bf treat.

gerek i tell you.

The cars are even hotter than Edward Cullen.

sumpah !

PISSED OFF NOW .

Apax : i only eat Char Kwey kay.
Mira : ily too.
I R A H : curik pt msia :)

2009-04-09T16:10:00.002+08:00

im bored to death and im hungry too.

off to Msia tomorrow. 2D1N jer.

meeting bf later as he's booking out later.

had fun yesterday meeting you guys.

and to my friend 'sepak kau nyer bibir' .

Take care of youself when you're in HongKong kay.

and to my Meerabby ,

be strong kay.dont let anyone pull you down.

i'll be here for you always.ni sumer mcm phm.

cyber gangster.idop penuh mcm phm nyer org. haha. tc bby.

i want to shop and i want ka-ching :)

2009-04-08T11:20:00.005+08:00

meet up with fisah and off to Suntec.

settle down. gossip. ice cream that cost us $10.worth it gyler i tell you.

meet up Ryzal at Bugis and had late lunch at Tong Seng.

went to watch David Archuleta ,followed by Adlin.

walk around Bugis Street and Bugis Junction.

all the shopping was to accompanied lin to buy her school stuffs.

and ouh yah i saw this particular Tweety Studs that cost $89.90 .

i soo wanting the studs larh siol . *bdae present (hint-hint)* :D

and later will be having secondary gathering.

see you guys !

.:: apax ::. memories of u the only thing i can hold on to says:

*btw ko n wan kcoh to d max sey
ain says:

*tkder wan ckp yg kau sYg aku. mmg larh sumer org kau sYg kan yus ?
.::apax ::. memories of u the only thing i can hold on to says:

*haha!*kcoh sakkk

*cKp nan die ku da lame KWN NGAN ko laa. ku pon syg kembar as a fren laa

bf booking out tomorrow . SEXCITED ! . haha .

2009-04-07T10:09:00.005+08:00

Good Morning .

my best bitching partner call me at 645 in the morning just to teman him

talk on the phone cause he saw his ex.

And i was swearing at him all along.

All the best if you choose to get engaged by end of this year.

lagy saper nak kawin/tunang ?!

meet bf in the noon yesterday as he went to poly

and get m/c just not to back to camp.

meet him at bedok and slack.

fight.arguments and 1 tight slap from me to him.

Sorry. I couldnt control it.

went off to meet twins.

so much for buying beg /shoe.

end up at mac and went home.

around 8 meet bf around my blk.

attitude.went home.

out with fisah later and maybe meeting rzal to bugis.

pape msg aku. okeh go.

And to Zibby : you wanna date ? okay.

we dating go barrage since you want it so much.

okeh ?

2009-04-05T00:31:00.003+08:00

i just had my dinner cum supper .

i had maggi as on Saturday people say dapur tak berasap :)

bf book out today. haha.

as usual fights untill now larh. i guess.

chapek si gue. gadoh-gadoh terus.

went to Sengkang Swimming Complex.

one word : sengket !

so much for the slide.so wad gytu loe !

what we girls wear was so not acceptable larh.

so was chase out and to put it apax was so call being a 'gentlemen'

wanted to bought us swimming suit. * like not ! *

i headed to meet bf and the rest went separated ways.

and now im here with my eyes half open. so people.

Good Malam :)

2009-04-03T09:38:00.004+08:00

im fucked up.im so stress up.

i need a direction in my life.and i mean it.

i need either one.school or work.

and i dont even have one.
tell me what life means to me now.

i cant be selfishly rely on my parents money all the time.

i do want to further my studies and i need work to save up money just to go back to school.

if only money issue was not a problem.

im feeling suckish right now.application for hnitec is unsuccessful.

Hazratul Ain

2009-04-02T11:38:00.009+08:00

out to Marina Barrage

since that night Yus and Adli got two wheels

that leaves us girls to go public.

and had our dinner at Raffles Banquet.

trust me meera and i do have a big appetite that night

and now here i am having stomachache.

waited for ryzal and off to Haji Lane

settle down at Mosi Cafe.

had our grape & apple sheesha flavour.

make a move at 10pm.

aku happy dapat meet yus and adli siol.

was last year since we had meet ups.

the rest of the pictures are up at multiply.

i got scolded by bf bcause i promised to be home by 10 aper lagy member memekak larh.

ryzal was like 'dier pt dalam , gelisah per kau uat pt luar'
bey tk yah nak over-reacting kan.haiyo .

on the phone with bf and biase jugak kalau tk gadoh tk sah.

bf just msg me and he will only book out on Saturday instead of Friday.

cheebai larh !

2009-03-31T17:12:00.006+08:00

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine.
Knowing that I could never find
that feeling with anyone other than you.

2009-03-29T09:45:00.007+08:00

masai faces .

when to Changi with the people and bf, overnight, fishing and craps.

only missing out zimah bby & bf.

as on Friday

meet up with bf after accompany peeqah to register to ITE Tamp :)

went to watch the Confession Of A Shopaholic.

meet up with bf friends at small mac and headed to Malay Village.

as it was having an event.

But unfortunately, menses cramp and back pain.

so i drop the thought of dancing with him

because i was depending on the chair that night.

i know somewhat bf was disappointed that i cnt along with his friends.

i just couldn't. so both of us had a tiff before going in.

im sorry.
half way through we went back and spent time together

as i could not bare the pain anymore.

we have arguments & disagreement yet i still have fun being with you.

im sorry if you didnt have fun that night as you're keep watch of me

like every 5 mins. i feel guilty seii.

thanks for the time spent.

im going to meet bf before he book in later.

Hugs & Kisses .

2009-03-26T21:32:00.003+08:00

thanx 4 update blog u..aiyo so bored besok pagi bute da kene wake up nk kene alik camp haiz...jgn lupe tau amek i pt pasir ris k..den mlm sikit kite le ngok wayang cite u nye turn k...n ikot i p werk also..k la gf i mit u besok ptg k...taking e care ily alwayz...hehe

2009-03-25T20:50:00.004+08:00

I was lazy to updated this blog of mine now.

bf insisted that i updated, so here i am.

meet up bf at my place intend to catch the 1205 movie.

due to my siap-ing. as usual larh tak sempat and bf was nagging all the way.

had lunch at LJS. sumpah cannot telan seii.

watch Dragonball Evaluation before that bf was going crazy over arcade.

and i didnt even have a stick after i had my lunch.

Pathetic !

after movie, this army boy of mine

keep pastering me he didnt want to go back to camp.

and went to the doctor tak m/c till fridae. perangai.

watch The Race To The Witch Mountain.

went home after our 2nd movie.

and to my army boy, thanks for everything eventho tempat kental pt TM.

i have fun and ily.

2009-03-24T10:56:00.002+08:00

haiz so bored sey at home..juz wish tat gf u were here wif me...i hurt my leg so badly..i am so hapi 2 mit u gf yesterdae..haiz besok da kene p alik camp kat tekong aiyo...k la bubbye
by; boijepon

2009-03-24T08:46:00.002+08:00

i meet up with bf yesterday.

was supposed to meet him till his book out

on Friday.

due to his injury. foot ligement .

and my poor bf was tempang-ing all the way :)

bf was all dark seii . 2-toned bf.

fetch him at Changi Hospital and went home.

he got 2 days m/c . suker skaly .

out with Peeqah bby later and i will be meeting bf later. maybe.

2009-03-23T09:22:00.005+08:00

Pictures from my 5 days course.

Certified Service Professional Batch 44th

Mr Dennis Koh, Trainee

ah boy and the tie-tier ?

and the Baba in the class

Team 1

the malay guy. was so call my 'brother'

2009-03-22T10:07:00.004+08:00

im craving for MacD hotcakes.

dont ask why.

saturday night was spent lepaking with the guys around my blk and

i swear bf was starting to act like my mum.

' make sure alek before 1030. dgr ke tk ? '

i told you. having 1 mum is much more enough to me. i dont need another one kay.

and as for today i will be going to Suntec for the job thingy.

this post is so random as im at home alone.

i need to start finding a freaking job and BTT yet to be completed.

2009-03-18T20:05:00.006+08:00

too many things.

too little time.

too many shits happening.haha.

1st thing Happy 19th birthday to Dinah & Beng.

last long woth your spouses and may have a blissful year ahead.

too people who wants the picture of Beng Bday.

i will put up at my multiply a.s.a.p .

been busy with my course.

andi will CHANGE my blog song.

no worries.

for the time being , please be patient.

and yes you did a big mistake.

BUT did i ever criticise you ?

if i did, state it down them.

unsincere ?what right do you have to say that my/our reply was arent sincere.

stop & think.

1 simple thing dont and you still did it.

im boiling with what happen but did i ever say anything to whoever ?

if you think you want to tell people what happen. go ahead larh kay.

ain dah malas ehk !

for now malas nak pikir2 tengok mcm aner kay.

and please ehk. aku bkn kes ank-ank primary sch. geng tk geng kay.

and to bf , im soo sorry . it slip my mind today.

2009-03-13T09:15:00.005+08:00

okeh people.

lagu pat blog aku nie korang tahan jer larh kay :)

i sleep for a few hours.

woken up my bf msg. happy larh bey.

padahal smlm ptg was msging with him.

went to meet bf at his blk and headed to have so-called lunch

with his mun and kakak

headed to Pasir Ris.

at1245 i say good bye to his family and hugs & kisses to bf.

i cnt bring myself to bring him to sent him to Tekong

cannot la seii. * aku kental *

meet Rizal at Pasir Ris mrt and headed to Lavender

to take my passport.

meet up with ain ,mira and ___ .

headed to Marine Parade and slack at ain's house and off to my grandma place.

this coming week im pack with plans.

so people, uat appointment dulu kay :)

i need to smoke now.

aper bf aku tengah bikin ehk ? * wondering * =D

2009-03-12T09:21:00.004+08:00

previous post was from bf.

and fuckloads im going to miss him for the 2 fucking weeks.

FUCK NS la !

aku sumpah nak tyme pass quickly.

im still reconsidering wanting to sent him off to Tekong or not.

what if i cry seii.

okeh ni part aku kental kay pasal aku nanges.

what do you expect bf nk gy ns siol.

wait till korang nyer matae gy ns korang phm perasaan aku :)

and to bf, pls pls pls take care of yourself

and kau jangan nak step luper msg aku kay.

and no worries i'll wait for you.

and you have my word.

2009-03-12T08:54:00.005+08:00

hey i juz wanna sae tat ily alot n i going 2 miz u bby..i have fun went spent tyme wif u todae iz e dae tat i going 2 miz u alot..u are alwayz b my princess tau..so tkmo notty k kat luar...i nnt mlm i msg wen i da pt camp i msg k..juz hope wen i book out i will saw u alone at pasir ris wating 4 me tau..hehe k la bubbye taking e care ily. n imy alot...

by : JePoNbby

2009-03-11T22:55:00.002+08:00

hey bby i akan miz u la..btw i am so hapi 2 b wif u..besok i da tkd i da masok camp tkmo noti2 k..n i akan msg u every nite k..i akan miz u alot.btw i will nt contect my ex again i da ader u in my lyfe i never feel any regret tau..i alwayz hapi tau 2 mit u.. n tkmo lupe ape u promise me tat dae k bby..u are my great bby in e world..altho we gado hari2 tap nw da tk mcm dulu lyke i sae both of us want 2 b hapi wif each oher tau...ily n i will miz u alot..

2009-03-11T09:55:00.004+08:00

went out early in the morning to meet Elfa.

and off to slack with bf and he piss off with me larh

because of i take __ & __ .

okeh this part i admit im at fault cos ive promise him alrdy la.

went back home and off to meet

twins to go to CDC and slack for awhile

while i meet bf around my blk and again he piss of with me

because, alah ni inside info uh .

aku dah agak dah mesti bf aku knl nye.

mcm cibai sak. lagy2 same kamching-ho.

mcm pokey tiang btol !!

Peeqah knows larh.

maybe im meeing bf later.

yelah2 hari-hari aku jmper matae aku.

tak leh salah kan per nnt member BARU nak msk ns. haha.

okeh nak mandi and meet bf.

BYE !

p/s :something shocked me . * confession *

2009-03-08T16:42:00.008+08:00

DanceWorks '09, to me was kinda disappointment.

the place,the weather and the crowd was just okeh la.

might due to the rain i guess.

meet up with twins, rizal and the rest at Bedok Mrt.

and the kakis at Plaza Singapura.

unexpectedly all were wearing black except peeqah.

had late dinner at dinner and off to Marina to lepak there.

meet up with bf . he with his friends .

* fisah & rzal, u know, i know . the reason.*

make a move at 10 and straight to bed cause my eyes is being a bitch.

i am waiting the pictures from fisah.

and upon receiving them i'll upload at multiply.

so idop rety sabar kay :)

bf dah botak and aku sumpah muker dier irritating. sumpah !

just tgk muker aku kalau korang tak bleh layan muker matae aku kay. :)

2009-03-06T09:03:00.004+08:00

Love is when you shed a tear and still want him,

it's when he ignores you and you still love him,

it's when he loves another girl but you still smile

and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry.

i sleep for a few hours and by 7am im up.

too much things happen yesterday.

yes i did ask bf for a break up yesterday morning.

and at the end of the day i know i 'll couldnt let go off him.

maybe things that i thought arent true.

maybe , just maybe.

i dont know. give me time.

2009-03-03T16:47:00.005+08:00

out with the kakis to bugis & sheesha-ing yesterday.

meet up with them after a long time.

nothing beats around with their accompany.

and now im craving for prata.

waiting for mama as she bought prata for me

meet up with bf and off to sent sister to her tuition center.

sorry if yesterday i was like quiet when on the way home.

headache strikes back uh :)

pictures up at multiply people.

2009-03-01T04:26:00.003+08:00

its 430 in the morning.

im still awake tho.

some have been asking what happen to my relationship.

for me . i not even certain of it myself.

sometimes i find it difficult to say things to him & even friends.

yes, he did say he will make amends.

i did give him a chance to do so when things were back to normal,

it happen again, like just now.

he give me his attitude without knowing what i did wrong.

banging things & vulgarities. what was that ?

you're angry at me you start throwing tantrums.

when you did all those shit to me, did i ever did all that to you ?

stop & think larh kay.

i dont even know what shit i have given him until he piss off with me.

whereas i did

N O T H I N G !

please larh dont find my fault when you cant it even find it kay.

i need to smoke now.

Bye !

" pergy balek aku ader jantan. asl tk nk ckp kau ader pompan.

kalau aku ader jantan , aku tkder byk ckp lagy siang2 aku tgl kan kau bulat2 larh

silap aku kau npk. silap kau ? kau pna npk per ?

tk semesti nyer aku diyam kau naek atas aku kay."

2009-02-28T09:13:00.010+08:00

fuck your truth .

macam org ckp,

ader pergy,ader balek.

aper kau uat pat aku aku kasik straight balek pat muker kau.

two words : JANGAN CABAR !

i can be the sweetest girl you ever know.

and i may be the meanest girl you ever came across. worse.

http://nail-for-fantasies.blogspot.com/

2009-02-27T10:18:00.005+08:00

shout out to Md.Yusry :

I MISS YOU LARH !

sampai aku mimpi kau sakk !

i want meet ups & camwhore .

u & me kay ? haha.

" dont bother anymore cause like i say im on the edge of giving up.

ader matae mcam takder , ader kwn pon macam tkder.

pape larh sial. mintak tolong mcam mintak aper.

so , luper kan. _l_ "

2009-02-24T21:53:00.003+08:00

im back from lepaking with rzal.

meet up with wan as he fetch me from my course yesterday and today.thanks :)

just random post tho as im bored and my mind is in a twirl right now.

i dont know what to do or say anymore.

too much.

im off to shower & then to bed.

and btw i want to watch Disney Princess On Ice ?

saper nak ikot ? tapy bayar sndiri kay.
because my good friend is going to get me the tickets for me alone

and he's not coming along.

as for wan he is going to his NS the day.

tak kan nak gy sorang kan ?!

2009-02-22T09:05:00.010+08:00

thankiue to my bestest friends

or meera called it F4 :)

despite im down yesterday,

you guys were there for me.

no matter what i say or did to you people,

you guys know i love you from the bottom of my heart.

pictures will be upload at multiply.

'' i tell myself to get over you,when i thought i make it through,

you've pull me from another end.

even i know at the end somehow it always come back to you.''

i feeling2 model :)

longest tongue ?cutest nose?

at the end of the day,they are the best !

2009-02-20T15:19:00.000+08:00

Dear Girl,

I think its time for you to just let go of him.
He has hurt you too much. Just let the memories fade.
It's time to leave him behind. I know it will be hard,
but it's for the best, trust me.
This isn’t the first time you're going through this any way .
So it’s not really a big deal to him right?
He probably enjoy breaking your heart because he has
probably have been doing this all the time
Of course, you're going to get your heart broken.
And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot.
That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger.
Then you can handle it better next time.
You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it.
And you'll be a stronger person because of it.
Then one day someone will come along,
and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.
He has no idea what is going through your mind

Love always, Your Heart .

2009-02-19T12:56:00.002+08:00

[RESTART] fuck this trojan virus.. says:
*u nak tau ape tak byk2 bende i rindu u nye gurau kasah gan u nye sepak je...
*hahaha
*funny shit...
● наzяатul ’аіи сuте ѕкаlу ● sick says:
*haha .
*i tink i didnt sepak eu enuff
*:)
[RESTART] fuck this rojan virus.. says:
*yah dats y i still missing ur slap...mayb...i guess...hmmmm...
*haha
● наzяатul ’аіи сuте ѕкаlу ● sick says:
*haha
*nvamind find anther gal dat will give u a slps
[RESTART] fuck this trojan virus.. says:
*u only 1 who dare to slap me...
*susah nak carik a unik gal like u...
● наzяатul ’аіи сuте ѕкаlу ● sick says:
*haha . bedek jer.
*im sure ader better gal like me out dare
[RESTART] fuck this trojan virus.. says:
*no for real u r best i dare u...u will sure do...
*yang lain semua i dare semua tak brani...
*psl takut i marah sepak diorang balik...
● наzяатul ’аіи сuте ѕкаlу ● sick says:
*haha . no worries eu will find lah.
[RESTART] fuck this trojan virus.. says:
*yelah find oredi wat there...her name is hazratul ain...
*hehe
● наzяатul ’аіи сuте ѕкаlу ● sick says:
*yarh. but u lost it.
*haha
[RESTART] fuck this trojan virus.. says:
*yah i lost it but i still can find it...
*if i lost my thing that i luv sure theres a way to find it wat...
● наzяатul ’аіи сuте ѕкаlу ● sick says:
*yarh. den take ur time to find another like me.
[RESTART] fuck this trojan virus.. says:
*no i only wan u...if i hurt u so deeply i sure can find a way to cure it back...
*k i sound like a sweet talker mother fucker...
*haha
● наzяатul ’аіи сuте ѕкаlу ● sick says:
*yarh. aru taw per stmf.
*haha

convo with my stmf typical mat rep ex :)

luper kan sdah.

you dont hold my heart anymore kay bby ! _│_

2009-02-18T23:27:00.005+08:00

met up with bf.

spent time. too short.

bla bla bla. he meet up wit his friends and i want home.

member lagy important per dari hari nie per. -_- *dah malas nak ckp kay*

i almost got knock down by a black nissan car.

i was dreaming i guess when i was about to cross the road.

my mind was else where i guess.

i dont even realise the red man was on when i was crossing.

it happen near the police post at my

house when the driver honked at me.

then i was like swearing @#$%^&*@ !

after that when i was crossing to my house near

the POSB i just dashed through the road without

bothering to look around.

in an hour almost 2 accidents. haha.

death cant be unexpected right so people.

Take Care kay :)

i loove you people.

and Happy 19th Birthday to Irah.

have a blissful year ahead with you bf.

take care !

2009-02-18T15:09:00.004+08:00

FUCK cos im sick.

FUCK cos im not strong anymore.

FUCK cos i dont know whether i can hang on anymore.

FUCK cos i dont know whether is this the right decision or not.

FUCK cos i dont know what to say anymore.

FUCK cos i dont know what to do.

FUCK cos im on the edge of giving up.

FUCK cos im stuck to life like this.

FUCK everything.

FUCK life.

dont blame me if ive found a better guy that treats me better.

i've done my best.

2009-02-16T10:09:00.009+08:00

im having sore throat right now.

good friend of mine is off to reservist for 11 days.

take care kay & i'll miss you for sure.

and not forgetting i miss all my kakis.

went lepak with my darlings people on Saturday & Sunday night.

went to Ite Simei suke-suke . haha. meet up with old friends of mine.

some how i miss the bloody environment there. haha.

those typical stares,the freaking shouts,the teachers especially the food .

im missing the food and those times :)

dont bother

2009-02-13T15:55:00.005+08:00

okeh people stop asking me whether im going out tomorrow or not .

yarh tomorrow valentines day. so what ?

i have NO plans and yes not even with bf.

i love my freaking boyfriend every fucking single day.

and i hope he does to ? haha.

so maybe i dont really into V.day . * but chocolates will do :) *

so people go enjoy your day with you partners okeh.

im freaking tired right now. meet bf in the morning.

and guess what i nearly get a punch frm bf. -_-

off to my auntie place to do packing and

now waiting for my sister to reach home before sending

her tuition center before going back to my auntie place.

Happy Valentines day to whoever will be celebrating Valentines day tomorrow.

and to my freaking boyfriend and my precious girlfriends/guyfriends

Happy Valentines Day.

aku sayang korang okeh ? * hugs & kisses *

2009-02-11T09:53:00.005+08:00

If I fell in love with you

Would you promise to be true

And help me understand cause

Ive been in love before

And I found that love was more

Than just holding hands

If I give my heart to you

I must be sure

From the very start

That you would love me more than her.

2009-02-09T17:44:00.003+08:00

Why cant't just guys be faithfull their their spouse/girlfriend/wife ?

no,no im not talking about bf. * i mean i've yet to see he is unfaithful to me :) *

this guy __ is a friend of mine.

but he didn't tell me he is married with 3 children

as in the wife is pregnant with his 3rd child.

i did told __ that im attached when he asked me.

but have the courtesy to tell me you're married larh kan.

luckily i manage to sort things out with his wife. haha.

even his wife admitted that __ is unfaithful to her.

wtf ! you're wife is carring your 3rd child and you're still goofing around.

guys maybe be a pain in the ass at times

but we, girls love them no matter what.

right ?

2009-02-07T23:42:00.005+08:00

yes. in my previous post is stated that i had a misunderstanding with bf.

things are getting tense and more complicated.

yes, it could be my fault of contacting with other guy.

we're friends and nothing more.

' wan byk st pompan uh. '

' sikit ari aku npk wan ngan satu pompan ader angkong uh '

now you tell me how the hell should i feel when people tell me that !

did i utter any word to you. No.

my reaction when people tell me that ?

i just smile :)

i admit i was the fire starter and you should know me better.

i don't know what to say and what to do anymore.

i just hope for the better and not the worst.

2009-02-04T10:31:00.016+08:00

had my Personal Efectivness Course at Tampines North CC for two days.

that was on Monday & Tuesday.

the course was fully paid by th Goverment. so why not i just go kan.

as you can see im the youngest there ,

more to pakcik & makcik , uncles & aunties.

class was okeh. until one of the pakcik call me bby/bby girl .

aku sumpah disgusting sak.

as the so called teacher said that ' we have a bby here '.

refering to me as im the youngest kan.

and that is where the so call bby thingy appeared.

on the 2nd day bf come down during my 1hr brk just to teman aku.

he didnt tell me that hes going to meet me.

he only text me when he reach tamp inter. luckily i was at Century Square.

selenger kan kau !

thanks kay.

i have only one pictureas the rest of it is with Farhan ?

i dont remember the name larh.

waiting for him to sent it to me. :)

' you have a nice smlie ' . *compliment or wad. haha*

~~i need GOLD nail polish.~~
need it asap uh !
anyone ?

2009-01-31T23:59:00.019+08:00

meet up with the bf just now.

aku sumpah bf aku kental.

he keep saying that i wanted to ditch him.

before i could say anything , i saw him crying.* okeh ni part kelakar *

seriously this is the 2nd tyme he cried infront of me.

* this tyme rabak gyler. he even talk to me using. kau aku. wtf !*

trust me i nvr make any guy cried before.serious larh.

* achievement kaper.okeh aku bastard sak *

as being a good gf i force myself not to laugh at him.

mcm kurang ajar kan nak ketawe kan.

and i told him ,

' ee. dah nk NS pon nak nanges.kental uh lu ! '

and of course i also have my so-called kental part. * shallnotelaboratekay *

only bf,peeqah and i know what my kental part is.

went to follow him to so called cut his hair. aku sumpuh potong rambot tk seberape

kene $14. haha. the nyonya says its CNY price.

matae aku jer dpt 'special' price ehk. haha. gundu !

tur uh gatal bkn nk tnyer harga dulu.

he meet him mum before off to our own destinations.

i want home as he went to Esp. he wanted me to tag along.

and i politely say no.

he ask why.

' byk member kau uh.anak2 strawberry lagy uh '

2009-01-28T20:22:00.011+08:00

why cant love story just be simple as those in the books.

fairytales ?

boy meets girl.

fall in love.

going through up and downs together to make it together till the end.

and live happily ever after.

why cant it be as simple as that .

ouh yah.i meet the bf yesterday.

something was not okeh. its not him. it lies with me.

" love to make me weak

friends to make me strong

and alcohol to make me hit the floor "

i need friends & alcohol. ~~love~~ ?

2009-01-26T11:07:00.005+08:00

unupdated pictures :

Countdown To 2009.

Celebrated Dol belated Birthday Outing.

2009-01-24T10:06:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday to M.Izwan aka Mandol(yesterday) and Mal(tomorrow) .

all the best in your future and have a blissful year ahead.

chey dol dah legal seii.

and to Mal pelan2 kayuh sampai ORD kay. haha.

' mak, dah lamer tk mkn ondeh-ondeh seii '

' nah ni ondeh-ondeh kau.' - mak

i told you i love my grandmother so much ,too much.

i was randomly saying i want ondeh-ondeh on thurs night.

and she make the ondeh-ondeh yesterday.

aku sumpah gyler babi aku syg nenek aku.

ouhkay take care . off to meet the kakis later. :)

2009-01-21T11:17:00.010+08:00

* be impressed when you go marina and see her picture up there :)

and tegor dier kalau npk dier pt saner kay.

p/s : tgk pompan cute pt blakang.*

selamat pagy.

i was mad yesterday don't whether its true or not.

trust me i don't really care right now. or at all.

as im not in the mood yesterday drop peeqah a msg to went out.

slack at Esp.just the both of us.

gossip and kutuk-ing.

keliru siol. *inside jokes*

peeqah meet her mum at Marina Square

as for me i meet bf at Marina steps.

pissed off. (shallnotelaborate)

slacked with him. made move home as hes off to work.

and now im off to eat :)

' ain kau duduk pat toilet sblm matae kau sampai dari ddk sini sorang2

bdk laki rambot gold tur tgk kau mcm nak telan siol. '

*look at each other and burst out laughing*

2009-01-19T12:22:00.006+08:00

my patience level is fucking low.
ive had enough of everything.
everything is in a mess now.

the parents really trying to screw my life.

been vomitting since yesterday due to the coughs im having.

sickness is coming back.

having the attacks just recently.

Even the medication couldnt cure it.

what should i do now? Stare and just pretend that im okay?

i feel like giving up. sooner or later.

2009-01-18T18:28:00.013+08:00

Happy Birthday to Nur'Ain.

Best wishes to you and your family.

Hope you will have a blissful year ahead + many-many children kay :)

Currently im lazy to put pictures up.

will do it soon.

and waiting for twins to give me the pictures of yesterday.

this coughs is getting on my nerves.

everything hurts due to the cough.

p/s : if today don't mean a thing to you. so don't bother anymore kay.

take care siol.

cigarettes and alcohol will be great at this point of time.

(pasir ris beach)

2009-01-15T22:47:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to Nal.

all the best oi !

i swear i dont want to get sick.

chatting wit Mal , Yan etc . .

sneezing non-stop. and this throat is killing me.

and i lose my sense off smell. how pathetic is that.

* yah true just take it easy.and i hope u will nv get hurt again. :)

if he hurts u just kick him in the balls.haha. *

thanks for being a friend. Hope you're safe at China.God Bless.

im tired.im upset.

patience running out.

for the last time. I dont care anymore.

2009-01-14T23:05:00.008+08:00

" When we drink, we get drunk. When we get drunk, we fall asleep.

When we fall asleep, we commit no sin.

When we commit no sin, we go to heaven.

Sssoooo, lets all get drunk, and go to heaven. "

im down with sore throat and running nose.

i really need a hot milo or something.

and im craving for chicken soup.

meet up with fisah and ask her to accompany me.

had lunch at Century Square and back home.

2009-01-13T12:35:00.004+08:00

meet bf yesterday.things were better.

went to Mr Desker house last Saturday for 2n3 gathering.

slacked with the guys ard 400+ on Sunday.

twins come over yesterday too. as meera didnt went to school.

now im alone at home.

piss off with parents.
takde issue nak uat issue. pk aku suker per.

we see how things can go far okeh ?

2009-01-12T23:43:00.005+08:00

result sucks .don't ask.

thanks for being my parents ehk.

2009-01-11T00:18:00.008+08:00

They say ,

' you're better off without him , you can find someone better '

but's that what they say not me.

And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me.

If you had only told me how you really felt,

I could have put my feelings into someone else.

You knew you didn't love me anymore.

I've heard too much, just too much.

tell me who should i believe.

you or them ?

I tried to leave the past behind me

But it just hurts so bad .

And I tell myself please don't cry

Let it go and let the past be the past .

She just wants her own self back.

They girl who was strong where friends would see her laughing for no reason

instead of asking her ' is everything okeh ? '

She appreaciated everything that they did to her despite knowing she's sick.

Fighting to live ? maybe.

And all she knew she just wants to live her life to the fullest.

To my buddy, Awie.

Thanks for making me laugh

and i knew you know that i'm not in the mood.

Thank You .

2009-01-09T11:13:00.007+08:00

i did this blogskin and something turn out wrong. pokey geram siol !
lawa kan lagy2 ader muker cutestuff *aku larh sial*. haha. be jealous,very jealous. haha. pey perangai.

my back hurts too much. fuck.

meet up with bby yesterday spent time

larh kan after one week not of meeting up. -_-'

hes busy with work *i guess* and im busy . .

making my butt big *fake* by lazing around at home.

2n3 gathering tomorrow. meet korang okeh !

and ouh yah o level results out on Monday. wahaha.

comfirm, comfirm flunk rabak nyer. :)